Let’s (Not) Talk About Sex

It was a while ago now that the email came through: The beauty editor of a nationwide parenting magazine had found my blog and wanted to know if I was interested in being featured in a piece she was putting together. Would I mind answering a few questions about beauty products and routines? Of course not! In fact, typing out my replies was an absolute pleasure.

This morning I got my hands on a copy of the actual, real magazine that actually, really has my name and my face and my words printed in actual, real colour on page 98. It was exciting. It was cool. But when I saw that I’m considered a “well-known Kiwi mum who blogs” I almost exploded. I’m well-known? Me? Most of the time I feel like I’m just talking to myself!

It’s confronting, to say the least, to suddenly realise that anybody, everybody, has free access to my life. For the most part I ignore the fact that there are people watching my videos and reading my posts, but when you see your picture in a magazine, or (true story) one of the school mums approaches you and says, “Oh I enjoyed your vlog about your daughter’s birthday gifts!” it all starts to feel very real, and very, very public.

Don’t get me wrong, I know what I’ve signed up for, and for the most part it’s exhilarating. Over on YouTube I can literally watch my numbers, both in terms of subscribers and actual viewers, grow. Here on my blog I’ve been enjoying reading through the comments you leave me. But every now and then I feel the need to pause and reevaluate my choices. Are blogging and vlogging in my family’s best interests? Am I disrespecting their privacy? Will my kids grow up to resent my decision to share my life, and theirs, on the internet? I mean, I’ve already spoken about the fact that I fear I’ve been inadvertently putting my children in danger. Am I really doing enough to keep them safe now?

Whatever the answers to my questions may be, I’m not really willing to stop what I’m doing. I feel like I’m onto a good thing here, that these “hobbies” of mine can and will take me in the direction I want to be heading in. I do, however, have every intention of stopping and thinking before I post, before I vlog, before I share my innermost thoughts and feelings. The thing is, I know what sells. I know that there are many parenting bloggers out there who’ve made a name for themselves by discussing their sex lives, or their relationship issues, or what their vagina is like now they’ve given birth. And while those topics may result in a huge increase in traffic, discussing that sort of thing is a path I flatly refuse to head down. My kids will grow up and they’ll use the internet. No doubt they’ll check up on me at some point. I would hate for them to ever feel embarrassed or disturbed by the stories I’ve told. I just can’t do that to them. Ever.

So far I think I’m doing okay. A few months ago I went through and privatised a whole bunch of videos I’d uploaded to my channel due to safety concerns, but I think I’m on the right track now. Though the kids’ faces have slowly started appearing in my vlogs again, though I have definitely been sharing some of their experiences, I do feel like the stories I’ve been telling are my own. And I’d like to think that I’ve been sharing them with care and respect. Sure, all parents embarrass their kids at some point, it’s inevitable. But if I can manage to limit that shame to in-person experiences only, then I’ll feel like I’ve done something right. Fingers crossed I can actually pull it off…

– Fern xxx

I’m featured in the latest issue of Little Treasures magazine. Look out for me!
Or, if you don’t yet have a copy, stay tuned for a giveaway over on my YouTube channel.
It’s coming very soon!

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5 Comment

  1. Fiona Cambouropoulos says: Reply

    Well done on being featured, that’s fantastic and a great achievement. As for keeping the balance right with kids online everyone has their own ideas, as long as you feel the balance is right then it is. Trust me by the time they reach teens they won’t let you take a photo of them but will happily upload a pile themselves! #KCACOLS

    1. fernp says: Reply

      Oh thank you, it was definitely an honour (and a huge novelty) to be contacted by the editor! You have made me feel a lot better, and I think you’re right. The fact that I’ve considered everything carefully and feel comfortable with my decisions means I’m not doing anything wrong. Ohh it will be funny to see how my kids behave online as teenagers! I’m kind of looking forward to that actually… xx

  2. Becky @ Educating Roversi says: Reply

    Very wise. As parent bloggers I think you’ve voiced a lot of concerns we all have. As a teacher, my concerns are twofold! But like you, I enjoy what I do and i am not willing to stop yet. I just have to stop and think before hitting publish. Thanks so much for linking up at #KCACOLS. Hope you come back again next Sunday. x

  3. Kim says: Reply

    I agree, I worry about publishing content that is too personal or is something my kids wouldn’t want me writing about when they get older. It’s a fine balance of being yourself and putting too much out there for the public. Its a good thing the fact that it crosses our minds and we are aware of it. Congrats on the feature! #KCACOLS

  4. Alex Fihema says: Reply

    Well done on being published in a magazine. More than anything, the shock factor wears off and become tedious very quickly. It’s the integrity that survives the tests of time #KCACOLS

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